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Journal Entry: Sat Jan 8, 2011, 9:14 PM
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You may not be her first, her last, or her only.
She loved before she may love again.
But if she loves you now, what else matters?
She's not perfect, you aren't either,
and the two of you may never be perfect together
but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice,
and admit to being human and making mistakes,
hold onto her and give her the most you can.
She may not be thinking about you
every second of the day, but she will give you a part of
her that she knows you can break her heart.
So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze  
and don't expect more than she can give.
Smile when she makes you happy,
let her know when she makes you mad,
and miss her when she's not there.
         -Bob Marley.



...
update from my last journal
...
my sister is still undergoing tests,
please say a prayer if you believe
in that sort of thing.


cheers.

Worried sick

Journal Entry: Wed Dec 29, 2010, 7:55 PM
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Hey everyone,

I've been up and down it seems emotionally this past month. dealing with stupid things that set my already emotional self to the point of panic attacks. I am supposed to be going home tomorrow to see family, which in all is a bitter sweet event but i am excited non the less. I try to make it work, and of course obstacles keep popping up irritating me along the way. For instance, the fact that i found out all my Christmas gifts that i paid to have shipped for Christmas did not in fact ship at all for Christmas. Or the fact that My flight for tomorrow was cancelled and I now have to take another.

On top of everything else i am worried sick about my sister. I recieved several texts and phone calls while at work this evening that my older sister is incredibly sick and in the hospital she has recovered from cancer this past year. I guess she has been feeling ill for a while and no one felt it necessary to tell me a damn thing. So now she is coughing up copious amounts of blood in a hospital bed and Im not there to comfort her. The earliest flight i can take isnt until noon tomorrow and I just wish that for once things went smoothly.

I will be gone for a week. so Keep my sister in your thoughts. I do appreciate it.


thanks for letting me rant i guess.

Irritation

Journal Entry: Tue Dec 28, 2010, 3:03 PM
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Think before you speak.

Thank you!

Journal Entry: Wed Dec 8, 2010, 8:06 AM
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Just wanted to say thank you for the birthday wishes. It was a wonderful day :)

Untitled

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 23, 2010, 3:09 PM
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been having fun with some new watercolors for class, hopefully i'll post them soon for you guys to see :)

ciao

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bleh

Journal Entry: Thu Oct 14, 2010, 8:58 PM
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surgery is a bitch i tell ya. finally got back on here to see i have 2,000 notifications holy cheese and rice! well it'll take me a while to go through it im sure. just passed the 29 thousand mark for pageviews thats kinda cool, bout to be out of a premium membership too, that will also be interesting. i forget what da looks like without it. haha

cheers


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hey cuties

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 19, 2010, 11:07 PM
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in a spur of a the moment today during my boredom, i decided to chop my hair off. not sure if i like it yet but im getting used to it thats for sure. i needed a change. i had to get rid of the weight. whenever i go through traumatic things, i get my hair cut... its weird.

i miss what deviantart used to be like for me. i feel  like this has been a VERY shitty year for me, and im starting over starting today. im going to try harder to make myself happy, and not dwell on things i hate so much. i have had a rough year with family, ending a relationship, losing friends and family, just dealing with baddddd shit ya know. i need positive energy, i want to feel better.

so im moving forward. because im better than all that shit in my past, and if people cant see that im worth something, than i dont need them in my life.

my heart is wounded and scarred, but im recovering the only way i know how.

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Comment and I'll...

Journal Entry: Thu Sep 9, 2010, 8:27 PM


I was challenged by :iconjb-1987: to post this so here it is.

Comment and I'll...
1. Tell you something I'll learn about you by looking at your dA page for 13 seconds.
2. Tell you which color you remind me of.
3. Tell you my first memory of you.
4. Tell you what object you remind me of.
5. Ask you something I've always wondered about you, and your answer has to be as vague as possible to keep the suspense.
6. Tell you my favorite thing about you.
7. Give you a weird nickname
8. Tell you what's on my shirt right now.
9. Challenge you to post this on your journal.

GO.

Ask me anything

Journal Entry: Thu Aug 19, 2010, 8:15 PM


Tell me a secret, anything.

Ask me anything.

28,000, catch it

Journal Entry: Wed Aug 18, 2010, 8:04 AM


catch my 28,000 page view and i'll do something special for you :) perhaps even on request if its within reason <3

away

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 27, 2010, 8:52 PM


off to michigan for 10 days... :)

Over come with Greif and sadness

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 3, 2010, 8:11 PM


one of my best friends died last night, in a motorcycle accident. im so sad and just at a loss of what to do with myself just thinking about it kills me. every moment that im not doing something to keep my brain distracted i start to cry. im in another state away from him and i cant attend the funeral or visitation to say goodbye. i honestly feel like jumping off a bridge into cold water, or getting incredibly drunk to rid myself of this massive internal heart ache. what am i to do? my grandfather died two weeks ago too. im just in an all time low.

all of this just brings me back to three years ago when i lost another dear friend and one of my first loves on a hot summer day on the soccer field, his heart just gave out. and again i was unable to say goodbye being in another state and conflicted with work.

im so sad, and so over come with the fact that death, yes, no shit is a part of life, but ya know it really fucking sucks.

Roger Mrozovich, you were only 20 years old, I loved you for 2 years in high school and i never told you. we were best friends our senior year, and even though we didn't hang out as much as i would have liked, you truly were a fierce friend, who had a great impact on my life. You will be missed. RIP July 2, 2010

Starting Fresh

Journal Entry: Sat Jun 26, 2010, 8:44 PM


I have revamped my gallery and put about 200 deviations in storage and cleaned out the attic so to speak.
so in light of my fresh start i think i will feature some of my recent favorites.

enjoy

amelie
glow by loish Loves me... Loves me not... by a-hour SW09-Poinsettias in the Deep by To-fu omaha, omaha by To-fu Pepper Freedom by Artgerm mermaid by loish
The Departure by jart64 Seattle by jart64 Fall Apart by Nachan Timeless by carlotta-guidicelli Liv Tyler by theangryfish Audrey Tautou by shimoda7 Keira Knightley by Thea-Nu :thumb167462368: Sunshowers by Sandrita-87 Minnesota Muntains by AndersonPhotography Nirvana by AndersonPhotography :thumb101731333: kiss by bebieee :thumb153927174: _romance. by josefinejonssonphoto Daria and Kuba by AnitaSadowska S10 by fbuk :thumb49579436: :thumb131655807: Puppy Party by TheJader Portrait of sad eyes by MarinStefan Soju III by JessyFTW :thumb148793549: Turbo and Randolp by Bavenmark Tired by dimitarmisev Bet is a bet by Turtle-poetique Peek a Boo by ntora All You Need is Love by jeyminems Sofia by Healzo :thumb144569417: Roger the Puff by EbonyKisses :thumb144772872: When Scruffy Attack by AruruusLuna :thumb143994994: arnold2 by ArinaKesh arnold by ArinaKesh Keep Me Safe II by And-I-Walk-Alone :thumb140984219: :thumb141109758:

REPORT THIS MEAN THEIF!!!!!!!! UPDATE

Journal Entry: Fri Jun 25, 2010, 8:25 AM


Update... annaics has deactivated her account, which is to say that she will more than likely create a new account and start fresh. it is a sad stupid situation, and i wish people like her would go away for good.


update* I have put all my deviations in storage until this issue is resolved.... im sorry but she is just going out of her way now to be ridiculous. if you could help that would be great.

ok, so this deviant has decided to steal many works from our fellow deviants, and has now brought me into the scuffle by saying she has my photos and spamming my page with hate mail. she has accounts on flikr, and photobucket with stolen works. she is just plain out nasty and i feel we should all report her.

REPORT HER HERE  help.deviantart.com/contact/

she has a flikr account here www.flickr.com/photos/50483300…
a photobucket here s1029.photobucket.com/home/luc…
a facebook here search under drropx@yahoo.com

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Journal Entry: Sun May 23, 2010, 4:35 PM


feel like asking me a question because im so bored?

www.formspring.me/em0rgan

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'Girl Confessions'

Journal Entry: Wed May 12, 2010, 8:17 PM


so why not answer this thing i was tagged in lol

1. Do you sleep in your bra?:
Too uncomfortable :

2. Do you enjoy drama?
I absolutely do not! I won't tolerate any bit of it!

3. Are you a girly girl?
um i have my moments but for the most part i'd say no

4. Who was the last person you hugged?
my dad

5. Small or large purses?
Medium will do. As long as I'm able to still find my belongings in it!

6. Are you short?
5'1'' & packed with attitude!

8. What would you do if someone smacked your butt?
ummmm depends on the person i guess, prolly get a shocked look on my face though.

9. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
kinda yea, i change them everyday.. weird question

10. Do you dress up on Halloween?
yes but only to pass out candy.

11. Are you double jointed?
no

12. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
on bleachers in a park

13. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
Who made this survey! I think this someone has a thing for butts.

14. Is there a rumor going around about you?
not that i know of...

15. Do you call anybody by their last name?
not that i can think of

16. How many guys will read this just because it says "Girl Confessions"?
haha idk prolly 2 or 3

:bulletpink:"X" Marks the spot:bulletpink:
[x] I do wear make-up.
[X] I have cried at a movie theater.
[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[X] I get jealous.
[x] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[XX] I love to laugh.
[ ] I like death/grind/black metal. (I prefer alternative)
[x] I like rap.
[] I like country.
[X] I carry a purse.
[X] I'd be lost without my computer.
[x] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[ ] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[x] I own a boy band CD.
[ ] I get bored watching football.
[x] I've never been called a spoiled brat.
[xxx] Guys are confusing.
[X] I've been called a bad influence.
[ ] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.


:bulletpink:Come on ladies, be truthful!:bulletpink:
1. What color is your bra that your wearing?
RED

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
doesnt really matter to me i like both

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
yes several

4. Do you have a best friend(s)?
um its complicated

5. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes too many times

6. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
noooo never. there are plenty of things i dont like about myself, but its what i was given and i have to accept that.

7. Do you like your life?
for the most part yes, but it really can be a bitch at times.

8. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
its complicated

9. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
YES :heart:

10. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
boys

11. How long have you had Facebook?
prolly a year

12. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
yes

13. What are your biggest fears
spiders, ghosts or rather the unknown in the dark...

14. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
unfortunately yes, to many times.

15. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Yes :heart:

16. Do you believe in the saying "Once a cheater, always a cheater"?
Really depends on the situation that person was involved in. i used to, but im trying to believe that people can change..

17. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
This question is to vague!

18. Do you ever wish you were famous?
Humbly famous. :love:

19. Are you currently missing someone?
always....

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Devious Journal Entry

Journal Entry: Fri Mar 19, 2010, 10:58 AM


glad spring is finally here.

im bored ask me a question and you'll be sure to get an answer

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Devious Journal Entry

Journal Entry: Sun Mar 14, 2010, 8:58 PM


sometime i just wish someone would call me late at night when im lonely

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I hurt too

Journal Entry: Sat Mar 6, 2010, 4:05 PM


if you want an update with my life here it is.

nick and i are no longer nick and i, i guess you could call us on a break. things are complicated and messy. everything just sucks right now. i just want to say that jealousy is a bitch, so is insecurities, LIES, and temptation. im sick of feeling like im going to lose him every moment to another woman. Im sick of conversations that are filled with gaps and lies. and im sick of all the things he doesnt tell me. i dont know if thats my issue or his, i just dont know anything anymore. im a wreck and i feel like i have only myself to blame.

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Dshark

Journal Entry: Sun Feb 14, 2010, 7:40 AM


The wonderful and exciting Dshark :icondshark: caught my 25000 pageview i966.photobucket.com/albums/ae… as promised, a feature :)


A Hero's ID by Dshark Alleyway update by Dshark
In The Door by Dshark LOLBama Poster by Dshark
The miss take by Dshark AHH It Godzirra by Dshark
Bear Stamp by Dshark

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